Proactive, F you procrastination

The funny thing is, a lot of us indulge in procrastination, I am not really sure why, there has to be a deep dark reason for it. I say this because when I procrastinate I feel terrible, I put things off, let things loom over my head, cause myself unnecessary anxiety- and so on and so on

But when I am proactive, I feel like a million bucks, I get paid, pay my bills right away am poor for 2 more weeks, but the money always seems to work out, I never go without, and I dont have to deal with nagging guilt of spending my money some where, where I know I shouldn't have.

Yet For every single thing I am proactive about, I procrastinate about 10 times more - I guess the question for me is why, and is it ok, maybe I am being anal and casting procrastination in a bad light when it really shouldn't be. But for me I want to try something new, to do the reverse of what I have done in the past, for every 10 things I am proactive about I will procrastinate about one.

This is my experiment, I will report back to you about how it turns out.